Full disclosure

Today I woke up at 5:53am.
I changed & fed the baby.
Autumn was awake and in the living room with me.
It was still dark outside.
I put the baby back in the bassinet, gave Autumn some water, and toasted and ate a bagel. I then convinced myself and Autumn to go back to bed.
I then slept through my 8:30am alarm.
I woke again at 9.
Because I had slept in my clothes and was exhausted I drifted in and out of sleep for the next 30 minutes. I finally got back out of bed at 9:33.
I hustled my two older children to get dressed while I toasted them bagels and woke/changed/dressed the baby.
We all got into the car at 9:58

I brushed my hair into a pony tail on the drive.

We arrived at the pediatrician's office at 10:10 i think... (appointment time of 10:20).
Check-in took longer than normal.
I had a hard time remembering the baby's birth date.
While in the waiting room I brushed/styled my two older girls' hair that I had not taken out the night before.
I nagged them both to finish eating their breakfast (what still remained of the bagels).
We were called back to the exam room.
I answered general health questions about the baby. I filled out a form. I reviewed questions about the baby's health to consider before allowing her to be immunized.
I undressed the baby.
She was weighed and measured.
I began to nurse her while we waited for the doctor.
Autumn and Tori were quite stir crazy (typical of their age) and it began to get intolerable for me.
I cautioned them and redirected their behavior several times.
I again told Tori to finish eating her breakfast.
The doctor came in and we chatted before the baby's exam.
The baby is not appropriately gaining weight. She is growing taller, but her weight gain is not advancing at the same rate.
The baby was examined.
She looks physically well aside from an eye infection encouraged by a plugged tear duct. But the plateau of weight gain on the growth chart is concerning. The most likely culprit is the baby's good sleep duration plus a shortage in breast milk supply.
I was encouraged to incase pumping and supplement after each feeding with pumped milk (if available) or formula to ensure the baby gains weight. I was counseled to come back in 2 weeks to check the baby's weight at that time and evaluate if any other steps would be needed to ensure optimal growth/health.
Both the baby and Autumn received vaccines.

I fed the baby more after the vaccines.
We lingered in the room for probably another 10 minutes so that i could finish nursing. Autumn and Tori were very fidgety wanting to play with the "prize" toy that Autumn had received for getting her flu shot.
They did not obey the rules I put in place with the toy.
The toy was put in time out.
They sat quietly for the last 2 minutes inside the exam room after being reprimanded (spoken to) for their behavior.
We went and checked out.
Check out and scheduling follow up/future visits took much longer than normal due to lack of available appointment times.
There was a line of 4 patients needing to check out behind me once I was finished.

I felt guilty for unintentionally making other people wait for me.
The girls and I all used the restroom downstairs before getting into the car.

We left and drove to the pharmacy for the baby's eye drops.
The pharmacy did not have the prescription yet.
I gave them the doctor's name and my phone number so that they could call me once they had it.

We drove to Albertsons to purchase a deli sub sandwich to share for lunch. I delayed getting out of the car to avoid conversing with someone I saw there that was leaving. I did not have time to spare.

The pharmacy called just as I undid my seat belt.

I buckled back up.
It was now 12:15.

I drove toward the pharmacy, stopping at Burger King's "drive-thru" to pick up an alternative lunch option because we now would have to eat in the car.
We got the prescription at the pharmacy.

It was now 12:35.
I hustled the older girls to eat because we had to get to school.
I drove. They somewhat ate.
We got to the school at 12:52.
Autumn wanted to get out of the car without eating any more food. I made her sit in her seat for 4 additional minutes to eat. I encouraged her to eat 5 more big bites of burger while walking from the car to the playground gate.
I forgot to hug her goodbye.

I drove to the other end of the school to drop off Tori.
I thanked her for finishing her lunch entrée before having to get out of the car.
I carried the baby's car seat and walked Tori to the drop off gate/line up area. We waited for maybe 3 minutes before her teacher came out to greet her class. (The time of that was probably 1:05 because her teacher is typically on the dot)
I also forgot to hug Tori goodbye.

I walked back to the car with a mildly fussy baby to drive home.
I forgot to go into the front school office to leave a note to Autumn's teacher about a volunteer scheduling question that I had.
I realized that once i got home.

The baby had fallen asleep in the car seat, so I began a load of laundry while praying out loud. I kept the baby where I  could see her while I did this.
Once the load was started, I took the baby out of the car seat.
I changed/nursed the baby again.
I administered her eye drops to her.
I switched the laundry just after nursing and started another load.
I made a bottle of formula for the baby.
I fed the baby all that she wound drink.
She spat up more than usual making a significant mess.

I changed her clothes.
She fell back asleep.

I organized my breast pump supplies, checked my blood sugar (52) ate cookies and milk, and began to pump breast milk.
It was 3:15 when I began.
I hand stimulated production while pumping and concluded at 3:35.
I put the milk in the freezer.
I gathered up the supplies, put the baby back in the car seat, got in the car and drove to the school.
I arrived at 3:48.
I gave the note needing to go to the kindergarten teacher to the pre-k teacher and asked her to put it into her mailbox.
I drove the girls home.

We unloaded the car and went inside.
I changed/nursed the baby.
It was now 4:25.
I told the girls to have quiet time until 5pm.

I switched the laundry. I put soda boxes away. I started to feel the symptoms of a low blood sugar.
I tested (56).
I had Autumn get me fruit snacks.
I wrote out instructions for the babysitter.
I forgot to start eating the fruit snacks for quite some time.
My mind wandered to everything I needed to complete/get done.
I then remembered to eat the fruit snacks.

I woke up Tori at 5pm from her brief nap.
I went back to the babysitter instructions/folding laundry.
Jay came home around 5:15pm.
At 5:30 I asked him to start cooking macaroni and cheese for the girls' dinner per their request.
I unloaded the dishwasher/put dishes away.
I laid out the girls' pajamas and put out their vitamins/toothbrushes for the babysitters.
I began to panic about time quickly disappearing.
My blood sugar was low so Jay instructed me to eat some mac and cheese.
I did, but not in one solid setting because I was attempting to multi-task to get ready to go out the door.
I took my medicine.
The babysitters arrived.
I gave verbal instructions to them during this mild panic attack the time rush had produced.

I put the baby in the car seat.
I double-checked the diaper bag contents.
I forgot that I had had a low volume alarm go off on my insulin pump when I was low. I remembered my dismissal of that alarm just before 6pm and grabbed my supplies when heading out the door at 6:13.

I swapped car positions with Jay. I decided he should drive because of my need to do a set change of my insulin pump.
I gave Jay driving instructions while administering my set change.

We arrived at the the junior high school 5 minutes late at 6:35pm.
We walked inside the classroom at 6:38pm.

During the 2 hour class I changed 1 diaper and nursed the baby for at least 40 minutes. I had to be standing with her in my arms for most of the other time.

We left the school at about 8:45

We got home at about 9:05pm.

I changed/fed the baby. I also made her another bottle of formula.
I put her into pajamas.
I switched the laundry.
I emptied the house trash cans and took the bin to the curb.

I talked to my neighbor for about 15 minutes expressing my current anxiety triggers and general emotional state of being.
I went back inside to the baby crying.

The baby threw up a lot of formula so Jay took off the wet pajamas and bib.
I held/comforted her for a while, then nursed her again. I put her into clean pajamas and swaddled her. She fell asleep at about 11pm.

I began writing this blog post at 11:32pm.
It is now 1:53am and I've finished writing it.

My summery of how the day was/went:
Compacted, unorganized, anxious, reactionary, emotional.